When I'm alone.

Today I felt tired and wanted too sleep. Kaitlyn woke up throughout(twice) the night. Sally and I took turns rocking her back to sleep. I think she may be having gas pains. Her farty farts are deadly. She brought me down to my knees at least three times today. I think the weather has a little to do with the way I feel too. I 'll probably go to bed early today. After I do the Wii Fit and the news. That may not sound early but, I usually go to bed at about midnight most nights.

I want to tell everybody about my alone time. What I do when I'm alone. I don't do anything but,think. To most people they probably enjoy this time a lot ex specially if they have kids. To me and I'm sure with other cancer patients It's actually the worst time of day. This is the time when you start thinking about if your going to see your kids grow up. Think about how you left things for your wife. I am a optimist. I do believe I will be ok, but there are no guarantees in life. I can't even drive my car by myself without thinking about my family. When a song comes on the radio that is sentimental or brings back memories it's really hard. Ex specially when cheesy songs come on, like the Carpenters, Abba and a lot of those groups from the seventies. I love those cheesy songs dammit and I'm not afraid to admit it. A few weeks ago Sally's and mine wedding song came on the radio(Savage Garden- Truly, Madly, Deeply). I was like oh know, not now. the tears started to flow. Moments like this is when you reflect on the mistakes or the things you have missed because you were to busy with the job and the dumb things you have done. I'll be in the car balling my eyes out and next to me will be someone looking at me wondering what the Hell is this guys problem. I try to have the tears wiped away before I get home but sometime my emotions are to strong to just be able to stop. So I will run in the bedroom as to not let Sally and the kids see me. Sometimes its just so hard you can't help it. Yesterday I took Zach to his soccer practice and I sat in the car. That was a huge mistake. Here I am watching this little boy of mine running around playing his heart out knowing that I am watching him. Thinking to myself what would happen to him if he loses his daddy. How much of a difference in his life will that make. I know sometimes Sally and I will be talking about my illness in the kitchen and he will be playing in the living room and he will ask us to stop talking about it. Sometimes he will go in his bedroom .You think isn't listening but he is. We need to be careful. I know he knows that I am sick just not sure if he knows how sick I am. He knows that I'm not supposed to do a lot around the house ex specially after chemo sessions , so sometimes he will yell at me to sit down and rest.So I do think he has an idea. Zachary is only 7 years old what memory will he have of me. My biological father died when I was about 11 years old. I have only a few memories of him. One of the memories that I still have is seeing him in that casket. I will never forget that. I don't want that to be a lasting memory for my kids at that young age. I always try to be there for all my kids when they need me. I always wonder what will become of them. If something does happen to me will that impact there choices they make in there life for the worse.I'm not saying I am this great father but , to this day I still think about my Dad and wonder what impact his death may have played in my life.
Kaitlyn will only be 2 on the 9th of April. So obviously she has no idea. If I do go she will not have a memory of her Dad. She is my little girl and I want to walk her down the aisle on her wedding day. ( when she is about 35ish) I will miss a lot of her first. She is starting to talk alot. she will repeat whatever we say. What will she be like ,what will she become.
Michael wants to do something in criminology. He has a lot of options to take in this field. What identity will he chose.( look at previous blog) Who will he marry and what will his house look like.What kind of a man will he turn out to be.
Sally is like me ,she thinks to much about things too. Sometimes we will cry together. I know it is hard on her. What will happen to her if things don`t go the way we plan. I love my wife dearly and I let her and my kids down. I could have prevented this if I didn't ignore the signs because I didn't want to miss work. Don't let this happen to you , If you have any signs that something doesn't seem right GO TO THE DOCTOR DAMMIT !!!!!!!!
Today I went to Avery to drop something off. That was hard for me. Seeing the place I was working at few months ago and the people I worked with. Everyone is supportive of me and I appreciate that. Now I'm not being very productive like the way I used to being. I feel like a failure cause I can't work and my wife has to take care of me, that is a very bitter pill to take.
It's really hard sometimes to stay strong . I need to try and think about other things when I'm alone. I hate being alone now. I used to like it, having peace and quiet. I'll tell you it really sucks. If something does happen to me I hope to God that Sally won't be alone. I'm sorry about the rambling but, this is something else I do believe most cancer patience go through but don't normally talk about cause they want to be strong for there families. This is my blog and I want to be brutally honest. Thanks for taking the time to read this and God Bless you all,

another fine day

Everyone wanted a picture of Michael. Here he is. He has identity issues.


Today I felt pretty good. Had a slight headache throughout the day. I spent most of the day with my brother and sister in law. We had got breakfast and walked around the mall. Showing them all the different things that are available to do at the mall . It's been a long time since they been here to see the changes. It was a very pleasant day. The weather I thought was warmer than the 45 degrees the weatherman said it would be. I also took Zachary to his soccer practice. The weather was a lot colder now. I enjoy watching those little kids running around while I'm in this nice warm car.( as I laugh to myself)
The benefit was again totally a fun time for me. I went there very nervous and scared. Ex -specially , when they announced that Bill is in the building.I was wondering if I should comb what little hair I have back and sing some Elvis melodies. Lucky for the people there I didn't. There would have been some serious crowd control issues. I had a speech made out but, because everything happened so fast I didn't have a chance to look it over. So I had to wing it. I felt that it started out rough but, as I got going I became more at ease. When I finished I realized that I brought the house down. I thought I was going to be carried out of there on someones shoulders(this is where my dream sequence ends). From what I was told I did do a good job.
Again this is a shorter blog. I have so much to talk about and say. It's just that when I do a lot during the day I don't have as much time with writing the blog because , I really need to make time for my wife and kids. I have plans for tomorrows blog that will be more on the long side and it will be informative and what I believe cancer patience go through. Thank to everyone for the prayers and support. I love each and everyone of you. Take care and God Bless

A Night to Remember

I wanted to say first of all that I been suffering from a headache most of the day, So I didn't do a lot today but, lounge around and go to my moms for a while to visit with her and to spend sometime with my brother and sister in law who came in from Tennessee for the benefit.

Now for the benefit. It was a night I will not ever forget. I want to give a huge thank you to all the people that came out to support me and my family. I really didn't think this many people would come out. The weather wasn't any good at all. I saw some people from my old old neighborhood in Highland. that was a huge thrill for me. They all looked just as they did when we were little with all them with still a full head of hair except for me. (what happened there) That really meant A lot for me to see them all. I almost wanted to ask them if they wanted to play a game of Kick the Can, Search or C-A-R. The memories that were brought back. The great people that I have just meant during the time of my diagnosis. That are still with me through all this. This felt real good to see them. All my family and friends, some of which made long trips in . God Bless you all ! My other family at Avery, You all are the best. Mr. Bill Goldsmith I hope you enjoy the Sox tickets . Be careful of the Sox fans they like to beat up the opposing teams players. If you make it that far watch outside of the ball park it's rough out there too. All of the Firemen that came out. some of which worked with my dad who is a retired Hammond fireman. A lot of them I remember from when he was still working. Flo I want to thank you for giving me the CUBS tickets you won at the raffle. You are a true gentleman and great person. ( will you be my new friend) The bands that were there playing( The Resonators, Beaver and Jake Blues) did a terrific job. My CUBS hat goes of to all of you. All of the people that gave there hand in helping out with the serving,cleaning, raffle, baking,donating , just being a smiling face or any other thing you did thank you for your appreciated time you took. I will write more about this awesome experience tomorrow. I just have this nagging headache that I want to go away. Sorry the blog is boring,I'm still blown away by the turn out.

PS Vicky thank you for the Taffy Apples.( very juicy and succulent) It's good to see someone on my shift cares and has a conscience.

Benefit

Keeping the blog short today. Tonight was the benefit which is causing me to post really late . I will tell more tomorrow and the next couple days to follow. I just wanted to say tonight it turned out really great. The hall was packed, the music and food was great, and everything seemed to run smoothly. I was really touched to see the crowd and everyone working hard on this. Honestly, I didn't think the turn out was going to be that good. I am a very blessed man!

Today's post will be short and sweet. We took Kaity this morning to the outlet mall to buy her shoes. It's a far drive but we it's worth the savings. My brother Dave and his wife Sara are here from Tennessee to be at the benefit. They stopped over and visited for a little bit. It was nice seeing them. Michael came home from school early today. He is still not feeling well and is running a fever. He took a nap and felt a little better. He packed and left for the weekend. Our diocese every year has a weekend for the teens called TAPT (Teens Are People Too). The teens are only able to attend once per life time. Michael went his freshmen year and had a touching experience. He was chosen to be a peer minister for this year. He had to attend at least 3 workshops to prepare for the weekend. He was very excited but nervous as well. He was also chosen to give a talk . He feels bad because he wanted to be at the benefit. So now he is sick but knows he is being counted on. I hope he feels better. I am proud of him.

I am nervous about tomorrow. I do not like to be the center of the attention. So don't laugh at me if I do something goofy. I am not graceful under pressure.

We had a late lunch and I am still not 100% because of the flu, so there was no dinner tonight. Maybe a snack later is all. I was told I needed to post a picture of Sally. There isn't to many pictures of her since she was once a member of the mob and I took her away from all that. Here is an older picture of us having fun. She wanted me to tell everyone she was pregnant with Kaity (wink wink).No she wasn't drinking.

A new day.

Today is a better day for the most part for the family. I am still a little dizzy and queasy at times but, I'm not vomiting any more I did eat some soup for lunch. It was Select Harst by Campbells Maryland Style Crab. It wasn't bad ,I just don't know what happened to the crab! Zachary is better and also had some vegetable soup. We still didn't send him to school cause we wanted to make sure his fever was gone. Sally is better but,still not quite there yet.The same with Michael. We are all eating cautiously. There will not be a dinner menu today(no protest letters please) cause we are going to eat on our owns terms.

I just want to let everyone know, that is planning on going to the benefit, that there is a rash of counterfeiters reproducing Cubs tickets.I will have to look at the tickets first since I know what to look for. If they are good I will return the tickets to the raffle promptly. If not I will be forced to turn the tickets in to the proper authorities. Sorry for the inconvenience. I know this may cause the raffle ticket sales to go down drastically,but I am just trying to be a good ,no great citizen just doing my part in trying to stop this atrocity. No fear the Sox tickets will still be in the raffle. The authorities aren't worried about the Sox. I was told Even if there were counterfeit tickets for Sox games it would be overlooked, cause they need all the help they can get in filling there seats.

Yes, Dan is a good friend of mine, but yes he has faults. The main one yes he is a Sox fan. If you know Dan the way I do you will understand. First of all he works on the same machine I do, the Metalizer. This machine melts aluminum on polyester material. so for this machine to work properly all the air in it has to be pumped out so the aluminum as it melts goes on the material. This machine has to be kept very clean. Can't have any dirt or any other contaminants in or it can ruin the process. So once every week we have a p.m. ( preventative maintenance) on the machine. There is a area of the machine were the diffusion pumps are. It is in a very enclosed area. This is Dan's favorite area to clean. You have to be a small guy to go in this area.( Dan always has fight with the attendants at amusement parks too, This can be embarrassing to is wife) Dan will take the cleaner we use and go to town with it. Not a lot of air circulation in this area. So the fumes are effecting his judgement.( mainly his choices ) Throughout the week he is always with a cleaning bottle in his hands. I believe he may have a problem. Now Dan is cross training in Metalure Finishing. This is where after our rolls in the Metalizer are done they go here to be stripped of the Aluminum. Dan is working on one of the stripping machines and is dealing with alot of acetone solvent. There isn't alot of air circulation in this area, which means again more fumes and bad choices. No matter were he works in this area batchmaking or centrifuge cleaning he cannot escape the harmful fumes. He likes fast cars too. so you know there is a lot of exhaust fumes around them. The good thing is none of his cars are fast. He likes to drink those energy drinks too. We all know what harm they could cause to the brain cells.

This is something I wanted to share with everyone,cause I thought it was quite. The day I made the Capelini Pomodoro on tuesday ( no my cooking was not the cause of every ones illnesses) Zachary came in from playing so than I made him a plate of this toothsome meal. I was doing the dishes and Zachary was just looking at me. I kept washing the dishes. So an hour goes by (there were alot of dishes) he still didn't touch my delectable dish. I finally asked him why he isn't eating. He said because Daddy you have to help me say my prayers first.

I hope all you the best. Hope to see you all at the benefit on Saturday from 5-9pm at the Hammond FOP. God bless you all. One other thing I wanted to say is, if it weren't for my Wife Sally being with me during these trying times , I probably would curl up in a ball and feel sorry for myself. She is definitely my ROCK and the best wife this man could ask for. I love you Sweetheart.

Sorry, there will be no post today. The rest of the family including Bill came down with the flu in the middle of the night. He was scheduled for chemo treatment tomorrow but had to reschedule for next Thursday.

Chef/Doctor Bill

Today I felt really good but, Sally now was feeling very sick. She is so competitive. She spent most of the day sleeping and I kept Kaity occupied. Sally hasn't eaten anything but, toast this morning. Kaity is eating better and, Her Stinky's is gone thank, goodness! I can still tell she isn't quite better yet though. Today I also attempted to go to the Dentist for a cleaning. When I got there , they wanted me to update my some of my personal history. When they called me in to get looked at,the hygienist mentioned you now have cancer and I said yes. She said that she may not be able to clean my teeth unless I get an OK with the oncologist. She said cause of all the bacteria in the mouth it could cause serious problems with me. She called and talk to the nurse at the clinic and she said no way. How often do you have to update your records. Maybe once every couple years and today was my time. I just think of what might have been if I didn`t. Would I have become seriously Sick. Who Knows I'm just glad I didn`t have to find out. That is why I believe that I will be OK , because obviously The Big Man Upstairs is looking out for me. Can I hear an amen.

Today I was the Chef ,and I made one of my favorite Olive Garden dishes,Capellini Pomodoro. First I started to boil water for the Whole Grain noodles that I will be using. When the water started to dance I added the noodles and a little salt to the water and cooked them for precisely 8 mins, An excellent source of fiber by the way. I took 8 of the Freshest Ambrosial Roma tomatoes that I could find at my local grocer and diced them in small pieces. I then took 11 of the greenest Basil leaves and chopped them up, followed by 3 gargantuan garlic cloves minced up with a Garlic Press. I added 6 tablespoons of the oiliest Olive Oil and mixed everything up in large manly sized bowl until the room was emancipating with a pleasing aroma. When the noodles were done cooking, I drain them and put them back in the boiling pot and added all of the savory concoction to the noodles ,and mixed it up well. I have to admit I was surprised it turned out delizioso.

I will have to go and spend some time with my sick wife. I haven't been with her all day. Now she is out of bed and watching the news. So I'm going to join her. Sorry the blog wasn't as entertaining. It was somewhat of an hectic day. It took me over 4 hours today to finish cause of all the interruptions I had today. Zachary woke up and threw up on his sheets so now he will not be going to school tomorrow. Kaity got very whinny this evening, so I was trying to comfort her.She misses her mother. God Bless all of you and I really hope to make an appearance at the benefit. I really don't know if I will be able to.

Bill's taking a break from the blog today. He is resting right now. He woke up in the middle of the night with stomach cramping. It's coming and going and now he is vomiting. Kaity is vomiting and has diahria. She has the nastiest farts as well which is bringing Bill down to his knees. It's hard to believe such a pretty little girl can produce such horrible odors. Sorry, it may be to much information for some. Tonight Bill is skipping dinner. I made a huge pan of strawberry jello for him and Kaity.

Thanks for the support and the prayers. It is helping him get through this.
Sally

My rant.

Today I went to church for the first in a while. I decided to go cause I am feeling very good and wanted to. I wasn't going because of all the people that are there that can make me sick. It always seems that there are people constantly coughing and sneezing. I did go to the 7:30 mass because, there usually isn't as many people there. It felt good to be there.
Later in the day I played with Zach and Kaitlyn outside. I had Kaitlyn on the swing and she didn't want to get off. So I was pushing her for at least a half hour to 45 minutes. Than I played some Nerf Dart Tag with Zach that he got from my sister Dawn and her husband for his birthday, and later I set up the Nerf Dart Board that he got from my brother Mike and his family for his birthday and played that. Sally and I sat on the porch and just watched our kids play , fight and argue with each other. Oh the joys of parenthood, I wouldn't want to change anything.
When I was younger I never thought I would have kids. Than Sally and I met and she Blessed me with 2 and gave me a bonus with Michael. Michael was 7 when we married and because of him I learned a lot. Thanks Michael, now the two youngest will be paying for what you did and what I learned from you. Michael is now 18.
My dinner menu today was brought to me from my friend Dan and his wife Tina. It was a delectable dish, to say the least( I say that in passed tense cause it's gone) that consisted of tender spaghetti noodles placed so uniformly in a 9 by 13 dish. With a generous heaping of meat sauce top with cheese. I heated it up til the cheese was bubbling and the kitchen was filled with redolence. We had a Iceberg salad mix that was made fresh with carrots and red cabbage and topped with a Mellisonant dressing. We also had Hawaiian dinner rolls that I believed was baked in Don Ho's own kitchen. I say this because, as I butted each roll the family and I would start to sing Tiny Bubbles in unison. I hope Jake Blues will sing this song at my benefit. They were the most softest and butteriest rolls that simply dispersed in my mouth. All this was accompanied by a tall glass of ice cold milk. Thank you Dan and Tina for the very tasty dish. We all loved it even Zach wanted a third helping. ( He isn't a pastaplegic like his dad normally is)
Bucket list item number 8 is : I would like to take the family to Washington D.C. and see the Capital Building and explain to my kids that this is the place were this country gets SCREWED UP!!!!!!!!! Don't get me wrong I love this country. It's just that they will pass new laws without reading how it will effect us. Also giving these lending companies this bailout money and the lending companies thinking its OK to pay there top people there bonus's when people are losing there houses. I know it was in the contract for them to get this bonus,but if they needed the bailout money to save there company the contract should automatically have been null and void and relanguaged. That money was to help the companies not go bankrupt, not to give out bonus's for poor performance, Nobody on Capital hill thought about what these crooks would do. They should of made them sign a contract on what this money is to be use for specifically before distributing this money. Sorry about the rant but, this AIG thing really sets me off.
Bucket list item number 7 is : I would really like to Have some special time alone with Sally.We do go out on dates on occasion but what I really want is a few days with just her and I and not have to worry about kids. Maybe a bed and breakfast that has a nice view of the country side or even in a nice town. I know this may sound cheesy but life is to short to really care what people may think. Besides this is my bucket list not there's. That's it for now Sally thinks I been doing this to long , Its only been about 2 hrs.God Bless you all !

Fulfilling Day

Today from 9-12pm I spent the time with the award winning( if they don`t have an award they should) St. James youth group collecting Teddy bears or stuffed animals for Riley Hospital for sick kids. So far they have collected 375 stuffed animals and collected 80 dollars for there hard work.Staley the Chicago Bears Mascot was there. He did a great job performing for everyone. They will still be accepting Teddy Bears at St. James but, not for long( til the end of the month). They will go and be delivered sometime in April, and I am planning on making the trip to visit with the sick kids, health permitting.

Later in the day we had the combo birthday party for Kaitlyn and Zachary at Edwardo's. The pizza we had was exquisite. It came to the table piping hot, to where it would burn your mouth off if your not careful. The ingredients used, you know were fresh. The sausage and pepperoni had the perfect amount of herbs and spices that made your mouth dance with joy. The crust was at the perfect circumference and thickness. The cheese was oozy with grade A mozzarella cheese, that would not let go of the next slice of pizza as you are trying to place a piece on you plate. We had two cakes a half sheet of chocolate moose for Kaity and a quarter sheet of yellow with a strawberry filling for Zach. I won`t say much about the cake,cause it`s cake. It could taste like paint and because it`s cake I`ll still like it.

My list for the bucket list in no particular order.(10. I would like to have a number of things done to the house that needs to be done. Like blowing it up and rebuilding. No, but seriously there are a few things internally and externally that should be done. I don`t have a list compiled but, I'm sure it would be lengthy.
( 9. This next one I will need help from the historically best, second to none, not the average Joe team, with the best fan base, one of the highest if not the highest memorabilia grossing teams and without a world series clouding scandal Chicago Cubs. I want to see them win a world series. I think they will do it because , if they think the curse of the Billy Goat is bad, They won't want to deal with the curse of Billy the Cancer Buster. Can you dig it !!!!!!! Or I would settle to take Zachary to a regular game or take a tour of the ball park.

I will come up with more soon. Maybe tomorrow maybe not. I will sign off for now. I had a fulfilling day and I'm getting very tired. I will be back with a meal menu that was brought to me by Dan and his wife Tina Blankenship. So stay tuned and God Bless you all for all your prayers and support. Good night!

My near death experiences.

Today I woke up well rested about noon and motivated to accomplish something. So I decided to clean out the garage. I could not walk into it. My kids always go in there to get something to play with and would put it back next to the garage door. So everything was compacted at the back and nothing in the front. The walk in door had balls and a bunch of other toys in front of it. So I got tired of hurdling everything so I cleaned it up. I probably shouldn't have done that cause if I would have gotten bitten by something how would that effect me? Come to think of it I am growing hair in places on my body I shouldn't be. I never really paid to much attention before, until now.

My first near death experience happened maybe almost two years ago. Sally and I got into a disagreement at Target so I decided to walk home. So as I am walking home I decided to stop at a Family Video Store in Highland. As I was standing there minding my own business a car comes crashing through the wall of the store at almost the exact spot I was standing. If it wasn't for my cat like reflexes I probably wouldn't be typing this now. It was done by three teenage boys, who after hitting the building got out of the car and came in and went looking for a movie like nobody noticed what happened. Needless to say I felt like I needed to go. ( strike one ? )
The second happened when Sally and I got into a disagreement. ( insert your own joke here) I decided to go for a walk what seemed to be a calm day. As I was turning a corner onto 45Th and Colfax I decided to go into a different Family Video in Griffith to just browse around( insert another joke here). Not realizing what is happening outside I get a cell call from Micheal asking me where I am . I thought Oh ,the wife must be worried about me. He said that mom is out looking for me. Again I thought she must really really be worried about me as I chuckled to myself. He asked if I am outside I said I was at the Family Video Store. He than preceded to tell me that there were tornadoes seen in the area. I said Sally is really taking this to far, trying to scare me like that. I went outside first thing I said was OH, HE..............LL NO!!!! It was raining and hailing so hard that as it hit me, it hurt bad. Than I thought oh my gosh Sally the one who put me in this predicament is out looking for me. ( not thinking at the time that I also put her in this predicament) , But now thinking about it, it was her fault anyway. So Michael relayed the message to her where I was. The joke was on me she was going to the Family Video in Highland not Griffith wear I was. Feeling that I had a S on my shirt I started to walk home. This was an experience I will never forget for the rest of my life. People aren`t kidding when they say tornadoes sound like a freight train. That is exactly what I heard as I was running home( It was actually basically running in place the wind was so strong). I thought maybe I should go back to the video store. Then I was thinking that Sally was out looking for me,remember I have the S on my shirt, so I continued. So I continue with my running in place and hearing all around me loud popping noises, thunder and trees being up rooted. One tree did fall about 20 to 30 feet from me. The whole time thinking where is Sally where is Sally. Not knowing at the time that she is going in the opposite direction. I did finally make it home, about a few minutes later Sally made it home. I told her thanks for coming to get me.( sarcasm) She had it just as bad as I did. She was dodging trees and debris also. This was the tornado that hit Griffith and Munster really bad( strike 2 ?). So now every time I go to Family Video I think whats going to happen now. I also realized that having a disagreement with your wife can be detrimental to your health.
So now that I have the big C is this strike 3. I don`t feel that it is because who else will have quality disagreements with Sally that can change my whole perspective on life. I seem to remember the day I was diagnosed Sally and I had a disagreement on the color bow Kaity should have in her hair.

Today for dinner I had a pasta dish that I won`t go into detail cause this blog is long. I Don`t want to put anybody to sleep. I Just thought I would tell you about some of the crazy things that happened during my married life. Thanks for all the prayers and God Bless you all!!!!!`

Michael's Youth Group

Life Ministry has been collecting new teddy bears throughout the month of March to donate to the hospital in Indianapolis for the benefit of youth that have severe illness. Teddy bears are used to provide comfort to the children as they persevere through their sickness. This Saturday, March 21, 2009 from 9:00am until noon, Life Ministry will be present at St. James the Less Church in Highland to collect bears being dropped off from the community.

Staley the Official Mascot of the Chicago Bears will be donating his time this Saturday, March 21, 2009 to assist in collecting new teddy bears for Riley Children's Hospital. Staley has generously donated his time from 11:00am until noon to be present to assist in this collection.

All new teddy bears collected will be delivered to Riley Children's Hospital in April. Take the time Saturday to purchase a new teddy bear and drop it off at St. James the Less Church at 9640 Kennedy Avenue in Highland IN, and enjoy a picture with Staley the Bear.

For additional information, contact Joe Kern at 219-803-4100 or JKern@Life-Ministry.org.

Its all good .

Today I saw my Doctor that did my surgery. He said I look great and I said I feel great .I don't know how long that will be cause my face is drying out.(a side effect) I will have to paste myself with a lot of face cream. He also completely released me to go back to work without any restrictions but, I will still have to see my Oncologist first before I can plan a come back. I think he will want to make sure my blood count is normal before he is ready( That is checked before every chemo session). I am hoping when I go back that I can stay on partial disability( working only three days a week) until I feel that the chemo treatments aren't messing with me as much.

The kids are out of school this week so I am trying to do some things with them. It was a fairly nice day so I wanted to go to the mall. Its a tradition that for there birthday that we go to build a bear. It started when Kaity was born Zach made her a bunny and when she turned 1 he got her a Elephant. This year she was able to pick out her own animal which was a bear with a pink tint to it. Sally had a ten dollar off certificate and a 20 percent off coupon so it worked out great. Than Zach and I went to Borders, cause he likes to read as much as I do. I like to read about the paranormal. Either people think its cool or that I am weird. Unexplained phenomenon fascinates me. I use to belong to a group that investigates haunted places and I have my own equipment but ,due to my circumstances I'm not doing that at all lately. I like to read about the history of Chicago sports mainly the Cubs.(The only real baseball team in Chicago) I would go on about the Cubs and that other unmentionable team but, Dan is a very good friend of mine and I don't want to tell him how sorry his team really is. By the way he is a St. Louis Rams fan. That should explain enough there.

I am not going to have a dinner menu today,cause its fend for yourself day at the Ceiga household. I have a taste for rye bread ,so I will probably just have toast. It will be crispy and lathered with butter.

So that is it for today but , all I ask is if there is any topic that anybody wants to hear about me or wants to know about me don't hesitant to post a comment.

Its a beautiful day in the neighborhood a beautiful day for a neighbor will you be mine could you be mine....

Today I woke up and felt like kissing the sky, so instead I took Zachary to see the movie Coroline. Sally won free tickets through Fandango, including the extra cost of 2.50$ for the 3-d glasses ea. Zachary said he liked it but, it was kinda scary. Than we went to Meijers and bought some Sunflower seeds. We planted some last year and they grew very tall and they tipped over. So this time I will do it different so they won't tip. I had a friend who didn't have that problem. oh well, practice makes perfect.

Today's tantalizing meal (insert drum roll here) Sweet and Sour Chicken. Made with Gladys own breasty parts from over at the Purdue Chicken Farm. (no steroids) First we take Gladys and some of her family members, cut them up into bite size morsels. Dip the morsels into a wholesome breading mixture that is only know to my wife. Fry the morsels until they reach a golden brown. Leaving them crispy yet, moist and tender on the inside.(just like the way Yang's from down the street used to make) The sauce is just the right amount of sweet and sour made with plump and juicy just flown in from Hawaii pineapple and freshest and shiniest red pepper we could buy and our local Aldi's. Accompanied with a bed of rice that was harvested and plowed in a Vietnamese rice paddy field brought in for my eating pleasure. We also had the enjoyment of the Green Giant himself pick his best looking Broccoli Spears from the valley that we had with the creamiest Butter Sauce.

I need to cut this a little short. Had more to say but, I need to take Zachary to his first soccer practice. Thanks again for all the support. God Bless you all!!!!

Happy St. Pattys

Today I felt a lot better than yesterday but, still a little tired. Zachary and I ran a few errands since it was a beautiful day. We went and ordered his birthday cake with a Star Wars theme, browsed around Borders and got a couple of Shamrock Shakes.

In honor of St. Patty's Days my wife made her traditional dinner. Ruben Sandwiches made with hearty rye which is made with the tangiest robust rye ever harvested on this planet combined with the wholesome ingredients to make it delectable to my taste buds. Smothered between with the most tender melt in your mouth corn beef which was simmered all day with beer, bay leaves, pepper corns, and garlic until it felt apart. Topped with Irish cheese which was flown in from an ancestor of St. Patrick himself for this special occasion. Also topped with thousand island dressing created by the fine people at Kraft and also topped with crisp Polish style kraut. It was then grilled until the cheese started oozing out of the sides. Accompanied with Amish style macaroni salad. The recipe was past down from generations through Amish and miraculously Sally was able to obtain it but will never say how. Plus some green fluff concoction of Sally's. It's made with the creamiest cool whip, the juiciest Hawaiian crushed pineapples and the best looking box of pistachio pudding that was sitting on the self at my local grocer's.

By the way the survey has my menu winning over my sexiness. Whats that about?

Today I am still extremely tired. It's frustrating for me. The weather is perfect, the kids are home from spring break but I don't have the energy to enjoy it. I feel like I need to sleep all day but I don't want to. I got out a little bit today. I drove Michael to the doctor and stopped at the meat market and Borders on the way home. I am ready for another nap. Another thing that makes it difficult is Zachary being only 7 it's hard for him to understand why his dad isn't able to ride bikes, take walks and play outside with him.

I took a break from writing this and drove Zachary to the park. It was nice. I sat on the bench. I enjoyed watching him having fun and playing but wish I was able to play with him like I use to.

Tonight's dinner was BLT sandwiches. Made with freshly baked bread, the finest bacon from my butcher (fried to just the right crispiness without being burnt), vine riped tomato( which were thinly sliced and sprinkled with fresh grounded sea salt), miracle whip (made by the fine people at Kraft), and crispy lettuce leafs. To accompany my delightful sandwich was a side of the creamiest macaroni salad made with the perfect blend of mayo, vinegar, and mustered with freshly chopped red peppers, onions and celery. Tonight beverage was a glass of fresh cow's milk pasteurized to perfection.

A very tiresome day

Today I feel very tired and fatigued. I'm not trying to do a lot today , just trying to take it easy. I just get so bored that I get up every so often just to pickup a little bit. I did go out with Zachary today and kicked his soccer ball around a little. It was only for about 15 mins,but I needed some fresh air.

I want to personally thank the Pastor and the members of the Harvest Church of Lowell for all the support and prayers. Just having all the great people of the church come together for my sake that has never met me is such a humbling experience. I want to thank Dan for mentioning my illness to his Church.

Dan is a friend of mine , co- worker and a world renown Author of a very good book called the Running Girl. He is currently writing another book soon to be on the New York Times best sellers list. He also writes for a Christian web site called Ezraweb.com

Tonight's tantalizing meal will be bean tostadas, made With the crispiest Fried to perfection yellow corn tortillas, with hand mashed til smooth and creamy refried beans layered generously on the tortillas, With the creamiest of Monterey Jack cheese that can be had in Wisconsin. It is then placed with love in the oven until the cheese is melted to a golden perfection. Remove from the oven and then add the greenest freshest shredded Ice Berg lettuce , the freshest and roundest of roma tomatoes and then drizzled with the best tasting taco sauce with the finest ingredients know to man that was made in New Jersey. Let's not forget the Mexican rice made with bell peppers,corn,onions,garlic and bits of Jalapenos that pulsates with flavor with every mouthful.

I am still compiling my bucket list so I will start to post soon. Thanks to everyone who has visited my site and hope you enjoy reading it as much as I do writing it. God Bless you all.

Bill

Bill is tired today. It seems that the 3rd day of treatment has been the hardest on him. He woke up feeling really tired. His friend Dan came over and it made him feel better. He didn't feel hungry today and said he felt to tired to eat. He finally did eat a little and felt better.

We went this evening and the pump was removed. He doesn't like wearing it. It's hard to sleep with it connected. He has to be careful the kids (especially Kaity) doesn't pull it out. Plus he can't shower with it.

I am going to write his dinner menu like he would but I know I am going to fail miserably. I can't beat a pro. So here is my futile attempt. The grassiest Mrs. Grass extra noodles soup with the crispiest/flakiest saltines you can fine. Beverage of choice strawberry kiwi all natural juice. Oh yeah I can't forget the chocolaty cupcake with whipped frosting with green, yellow, and white sprinkles.

If I Loose my Hair...

I had a lot of questions asking about the pump. It's hard to describe so I took a picture of it. By the way, thanks mom for the cupcakes they were delicious.

If I loose my hair I will run out of the house screaming like a little girl. No, actually I would like to go and get the coolest looking cubs cap I could find, maybe two. I think I will look to silly with no hair. I wouldn't be use to it. The doctor said I might loose my hair. During my first chemo session they told a lady next to me that she will loose her hair. I will just have to wait and see.

I going to make my bucket list in the next few days or so. I will post 2 or so at a time until I listed 10. I have to think about what I want to do since I lead a full life already. ( yeah right)

Today I woke up this morning and went to the bathroom to do my business. As I was standing there on my bare feet and had that feeling of electric shock( the floor was very cold). Like from my earlier blog with my fingers. This was a little more painful. With the weight of my body on my feet I know it didn't help. So I hopped jumped and skipped out of the bathroom and put on some socks and slippers right a way. The pain went away quickly. I have been warned about the cold, I just have to remember. Also, if I take a drink of something to cold it's like I have a mouth full of Altoids in my mouth. Like the cooling sensation you feel when you put a mint in your mouth, but only a lot more of them.

Today my menu will be french bread smothered with melted butter that was freshly churned with freshly pressed garlic added , With a layer of freshly picked vine ripened thinly sliced Roma Tomatoes and the finest Italian Blend Cheese you could find in Wisconsin. Then toasted in the oven until lightly golden brown. Served with a fresh salad made with freshly chopped romaine lettuce, thin slices of red onion, best black olives you can find in Greece and the crunchiest croutons you can find at your local grocer ( also great for snacks and soups). Drizzled with freshly made Italian dressing with the finest ingredient you can find in my kitchen cabinet made by the one and only yours truly. Beverage of choice the sparkelingest strawberry watermelon flavored water.

My Chemo Day

Today was my second session out of 12. It wasn't to bad. I was there for 5 hours. There were a few people around my age there. It seemed to go fast. The nurses are upbeat and very entertaining. In a bazaar kind of way I enjoy going. Goodi is one of the nurses. Happy Birthday Goodi! I feel good right now. I just don't feel very sexy having a pump connected to me. I go Saturday evening to have the pump disconnected.

Tonight's menu is the most delicious bologna sandwich I ever had eaten(I have a craving for Bologna). Thin round slices of the finest processed meat you can find with the tangiest miracle whip that comes finely package in a jar. Served on a Sara Lee French Roll. One of the finest products Sara Lee produces. With a pleasantly manly handful of the crispiest fried chips I could find. My beverage was the perfect blend of the richest coffee brought in by Juan Valdez himself from Columbia , for my coffee drinking pleasure.

If I could be any animal I would be .......

If I could be any animal in the world, I would want to be a Three Toed Sloth. I think I would have it made. All I would do is hang around in trees all day without a care in the world. I think I would look kind of cool to. No other animal or human could make me move faster, I would look at you and laugh and say I am a three toed sloth you won't make me move faster. If I decided to go swimming I would be quite the swimmer. I wouldn't have to worry about my weight cause I would only weigh about ten pounds. All I would eat are the delicious vegetation that surrounds me .I would only have to leave the tree once a week to go poopies. That is why I would want to be a Three Toed Sloth.

I also wanted to let those who are interested, there is a link on the upper right side for information about the benefit.

Today I feel very good. My pain in my arms and shoulders is a lot better today. I went and got my blood work done today( checking my blood count), getting ready for tomorrows chemo session.

Tonight's dinner was simple. We made panini sandwiches. Home made rosemary focaccia bread made only the way the great Italian Chefs would make it. Filled with thin slices of Monday's left over tender roast beef, with provolone cheese, grilled onions, mushrooms and yellow peppers from some farmers garden .Smothered in horseradish sauce and grilled til perfection. Served with deep fried salted ripple chips. The beverage of my choice was root beer with just the right amount of sassafras.

Just another day

Today, I feel good. I still have the pain in my arm and shoulder but the pain medicine is making it much more bearable. I forgot yesterday to mention , I will be going for physical therapy. Just waiting for the insurance company to approve before I schedule an appointment.

I also wanted to give out a huge thank you to the St. James Life Ministry. They are a group of great teens. This past Saturday they hosted a movie night and all monies that were collected went to help my family. This huge jester really meant a lot to me. It seems the youth usually get a bad rap which is unfair to them. From my experience they are generous , willing to help and are a great bunch of kids.

I hope the weather clears up. Days like we have been having seem to make me gloomy. Today I stayed home. I straightened up around the house and help Zachary with his homework. We filed our taxes and dealt with the insurance company and the hospital about the bills. We got everything straightened out so one less thing on the to do list.

Tonight's dinner not sure what to call it. We call chop suey but it's really not . It's another one of Sally's concoctions. It's thin bite sizes of cooked pork, with cut onions, celery, carrots, cabbage, broccoli, water chestnuts, baby corn, bean sprout and bamboo shoots. It's cooked in a light sauce and served over a bed of rice rushed sraight over from China for my consumption. The boys always have 2 helpings of this. She might alter the veggies. We just use what we have on hand. It's a great way to use the veggies.

Today I feel great except for the pain in my shoulder that shoots down my arm. So Sally made an appointment for myself, cause it was driving me crazy. The Doctor gave me a different pain pill then the one I have . It seems to be working better. The one I had was for the surgery and didn't seem to help. He had me get x- rays, that came out normal. He also wants me to go to a Thyroid specialist to possibly have a bubble spot removed( It's the Specialist's choice). He believes it is nothing to worry about. It's a common issue with thyroids that most people get. While I was seeing the doctor, Sally took Kaity to see the urgent care doctor. She was up most of the night favoring her right ear. The doctor said she does have an ear infection. She got a couple of scripts and is back to being rambunctious after her first dose.

Today's menu consisted of the most succulent choice of beef roast cooked to perfection, accompanied by the sweetest of baby carrots from natures garden roasted til tender, with mashed potatoes made with the creamiest cream cheese , hand churned butter and sour cream added and the most golden buttery , flaky crescent rolls you have ever tasted( may have to edit this post later. Sally might burn the biscuits so they may not turn out golden brown).

Sunday

Today, I felt blah, the weather had a lot to do with it. Also, I have been having a lot of pain in my shoulder and arm. I think it is from picking Kaity up. I still can't take aspirin so I need to be careful what I take for pain. I have been using a TENS unit on it and it seems to help.

I haven't gone to mass in the last couple of weeks because of the crowd. Mary (Sally's mom) has been bringing me Holy Communion on Sundays. I am looking forward when I am able to get out and about more, I really hate being stuck in the house. When the weather is nice I go out. I go out a little bit during the day and stay away from crowded places. I would go nuts if I stayed at home 24/7.

Dinner tonight consist of tropical chicken scampi. Thin strips of chicken sauteed in butter, crushed garlic, then drizzled with fresh squeezed lemon, lime, and orange. Sprinkled with chopped parsley and a pinch of Cayenne pepper. Accompanied with roasted cauliflower which was drizzled with olive oil and fresh grounded sea salt and rice pilaf. I must say, Sally can usually make anything. She often creates most of her dishes. Even the dishes most people won't attempt Sally can usually make with much success. However, she seems to have the most trouble with the least complicated things. She has yet to master the basic rice crispy squares. Tonight, I must admit the rice pilaf was from a box but everything else wasn't. Everything turned out good except the goofed up on the rice. She forgot to put the seasoning packet in it. So it makes me feel better I am not the only one who has kitchen mishaps.

Dan this meals for you.

Today's Menu consisted of home made PIZZA WITH FRESH PINEAPPLE rushed especially to me from Hawaii , sliced Jalapeno Peppers fresh from Chicago, with 6 blended Italian Cheeses made fresh in Wisconsin and the finest tasting pizza sauce made with fresh Roma Tomatoes from Nature's Garden. My beverage was ice cold Ginger Ale

The reason that this menu was special to my friend Dan, was A while back at my job at the metallizer machine at Avery Dennison, Dan bought a pizza for himself with pineapples on it for his lunch. He put the left overs in the fridge at work. The next day he went to eat it and it was gone. He was really outraged about and demanded to know who consumed his pizza. I was was blamed for eating it (always blame the fat guy). I was on a different machine at that time and I would never eat someone else's food unless it's Vicky's delicious apple. So Dan, I will think of you as I savor every bite.

Today was Zachary's Birthday

Zachary woke up at his normal time of 7am. No matter what time he is up at night he always gets up at about 7. Since it was his 7th Birthday Sally made him Pancakes. He opened up his presents with the help of Kaity. He got lego Star Wars kit and a couple of other things we had put away during Christmas time. He will have his birthday party with the family later this month with his sister,because hers is in April. I spent most of the morning putting together his lego Star Wars. Sally than took him out to lunch to Tyler's Tenders. I stayed home and made him the most delicious Cherry Chip Cake with Moose Tracks Ice Cream.

My little boy was very much planned. We were trying for a couple of years and ended up having to go to a specialist. Sally told me she was pregnant in a card. That was one of the most happiest days of my life. It was hard to believe I was going to be a dad. We decided to find out the sex during the ultra sound. Michael wanted a baby brother really bad. When he got home from school he asked if he was going to have a little brother and we told him no it's a girl. He was crushed. Sally and I couldn't stop laughing (yes, we are evil). Sally's was scheduled for a C-section for the morning. However, Zachary is the type of kid who does everything on his own time. Her water broke around 3 AM that morning and we went to the hospital earlier then planned. It took some time to realize I had a son. Zachary was wide awake as a newborn and was never much of a sleeper. He hasn't change since.

The menu for tonight is a special tribute to my friend Dan from work. So Dan hang on the next post is dedicated to you my friend.

Here I go again.

I need to continue with yesterday apologizes to my family. I need to tell my mom I am sorry for taking off on my toy lamb when I was 2. I was just taking a joy ride on a nice sunny day. I would still probably be on my lamb if it wasn't for 2 people who stopped me. The ride in the police car was fun and I really enjoyed the ice cream cone the officer gave me. What ever happened to that lamb mom? I really miss her.

Today, has been uneventful. Not much happened. I went for an ultra sound in the morning and visited with my mom on the way home. Sally and Zachary are going to his school's fun fair in a little bit. I really wish I would be able to go but I know I am better off staying home because of the germs. Next year Zach, Dad will take you. When they are gone I will be wrapping up Zachary's birthday gifts. It's hard to believe my little pumpkin will be turning 7 tomorrow. Then later tonight Sally and I will be watching "The Haunting of Molly Hartley" with a bowl of popcorn.

I want to tell everyone about one of my greatest regrets,and I hope that some people can learn from this. I am now 44 years old Michael is 18, Zachary will be 7 tomorrow and Kaitlyn will be 2 in April. I wish that I spent more time with my kids than what I did. I was always working and when I was home I was to tired to do much and irritable. Now that I am home , I still can't , because I have restrictions. I'm not saying I never did anything with them , just not enough to have what I believe should be good memories with there Dad. So to my kids I am sorry for that. So on a Happier note I am more determined than ever to beat this so my kids will Have the memories of there Dad that they deserve.

Dinner tonight will be the cheesiest Macaroni and Cheese courtesy of Centrella, with a fresh glass of milk.

Oops

It came to my attention I didn't mention my sister Lisa for helping out with the benefit. Sorry Lisa. I am sure there are many more people I need to mention. I do not know who everyone is, unless I am told. After the benefit, I will thank everyone I know who had a hand in it. It just amazes me, the amount people who are helping.

A Great Day.

This may sound small to most of you, but today I was able to pick-up Kaitlyn for the first time since I was admitted to the Hospital on Jan. 28. It felt good and Katy liked it even more. I was flinging her around the room . She wouldn't stop laughing. It's funny how the simple things in life you take for granted. Never take anything for granted, you never know what God has in store for you or your loved ones.

I wanted to say something to my sister Dawn before I forget. I want to say to her that I forgive her for stealing all my chocolate candy out of my Christmas stockings throughout my youth. I know she has been losing sleep , I just want her to be able and rest peacefully.

Mike, I would like to say I am sorry for killing your fish , when I poured the cement mix in the baby pool you had them in. I was only a young lad at the time and thought I was only feeding the fish.

Dave, I am sorry that I scratched all your Beach Boys , Beatles and Barry Manilow albums , because you played them over and over and over ........... again. ( for the young ones out there albums were a black flat disc played on a machine called a phonograph) I hope your taste has gotten in better with age.

Carolyn and Lisa I am sorry for scaring off your man pool when we were a younger. If I was able to do it all again , I would still do it! You both ended up with pretty good guys now, so I believe I did you a service.

I just had to get that all off my chest. There will be more throughout the days. Wait til I get to my parents, WHOA !

My menu today comes from one of Sally's friends Kim. It has no name . It's round steak cut in to small bites, grilled onions, slice potatoes with a creamy mushroom sauce poured over it and baked until tender, with crisp Romaine salad with home made french dressing (I made it, hope it's good), garlic bread, and fresh from the cow skim milk.

My Daily Blog PT. 2

I have a kind of sick feeling after I had my encounter with Dr. Evil ( look at previous blog). I won't go into that now. All I will say is that office is very incompetent.

Today Zachary didn't have school cause one of the teachers died the past Saturday. So the entire school was off for the funeral. Today Zachary was asking me "Dad can I do something for you?" I said no I'll be OK, but he kept asking me. So finally I said sure rub my belly for me. ( He asked) He said Daaaaaad and ran away and started playing with his legos.

I had another realization. I believe that my cancer symptoms started when the Cubs blew the playoffs. I believe this to be the truth to the best of my knowledge. :)

Tomorrow I am going to start building a model airplane with Zach. He's been bugging me since he picked it out for me for my birthday.

Also, Michael gave blood last week through Heartland and was put in a drawing for a laptop computer. Yes, you guessed it he won. So now he will have a computer when he goes to college.

Dinner time: Today because of how I felt earlier Sally and I decided to have cheap frozen pizza so at least the kids and Sally could eat if I didn't feel like it. I didn't want her to make a nice meal if I didn't feel like eating ( I did feel like it) My beverage choice was room temperature Ginger Ale. Until tomorrow evening God Bless all at you and thanks for your support.

I need to Vent!!!!

Today I called one of the doctors that I see periodically,because I gave his receptionist some forms that needed to be done for me to get disability. Well anyway I gave them the paper work on the 20th of Feb. Here it is March 4th and she said that they weren`t done yet. I did call on the 27th of Feb and the receptionist said they weren`t done ,but it was sitting on his desk with my chart. So when I called today day a different receptionist said that it still wasn`t done and I would have to make an appointment to have it done. Needless to say I had a fit. I told the nice lady that it would be two weeks on Friday that they had the paperwork and why if this was the reason they weren`t done nobody called me to inform me of this idiotic rule. ( I said this was very unprofessional) I also told her if I don`t get this done after a certain time frame I will get denied. She put me on hold for what seemed like an days. She came back after I grew a full beard and said she will make an appointment today with the doctor for me to get the forms done. I said that will be Ok except that he better not charge me to have the forms done since I most likely will have a co-payment now. To let everyone know this may be my last posting for a while,cause I may get arrested after I leave bite marks in the Doctors butt( not the exact wording I wanted to use). I will have another post later if I don`t get arrested.

I am King!

Today I woke up feeling good with the exception of a slight stiff neck. So as far as how I feel there isn't anything new to report.

Something happened to me the other day just after my first chemo session. I went outside to the backyard to make sure everything was put in the front yard for garbage and recycling picked-up. I saw a piece of cardboard to put in the recycling bin that had a very thin layer of ice on it. When I went to pick up the cardboard, it felt as I was getting electrocuted at my finger tips. (Like when you stick your tongue on a 9-volt battery. Not that I have done this, it's just what I was told by some immature people.) The doctor told me that I would be sensitive to cold things after my sessions, I just didn't realize just how sensitive.

I want to let all the people at Avery Dennison thank you for all the support I have received. I miss all of you. I hope to be back and cause havoc very soon.

Today my dinner menu consisted of a flame-broiled hamburger with all the basic trimmings from BK( .69 at BK on Tuesdays). With a side of the crispiest of crispy and cheesiest of cheesy tots with Canfields Black Cherry Sparkling water beverage.

This and That

In case anyone was trying to post yesterday and had a problem, Sally made changes and it should be easier to post.
Today I woke up feeling pretty good except I felt like I just finished working out at the gym. I will take that feeling over the sick feeling any day.
I would like to thank everyone that has supported me and my family during this tough time with prayers and gifts ( monetary and otherwise). You all are making this difficult time a little easier to cope with.
Today, Sally and I went to Harris Bank and opened up an account for the benefit that my sisters Carolyn and Dawn are putting together for me with the help of a lot of wonderful people many of which don't even know me. Their help will not go unnoticed.
A big thank you goes out to the Kern family for the prayers and the best blanket I have ever laid eyes on in my life. (GO CUBS)
Sally, I want to give you a special thank you for waiting on me hand and foot at the snap of a finger. I LOVE YOU and thanks for putting up with a broken down old man.
For those of you wondering my dinner menu for today it consist of Potato soup with the most scrumptious morsels of potatoes with a white cheesy sauce and fresh crusty Rosemary bread served fresh out of the oven. My beverage of choice was room temperature milk.

Cupcakes

Zachary made me yummy cupcakes!

My last few days at home.(2-27,28 and 3-1)

My last few days at home weren't very good. The nausea started and I had the bitter taste in my mouth. All I felt like doing was laying around doing nothing. The nausea came and went frequently throughout the past few days, I didn't want to eat or drink anything unless it had chocolate dripped all over it. ( Can you say chocoholic) Sally is going to make me spaghetti for dinner which is another one of my weaknesses. The doctor told us if I had a craving that Sally should make it, this way I would probably actually eat. I think tomorrow will be surf and turf.
I will try and post daily to let everyone know what is going on with me and the family, Take care and God bless. Bill