The lastest minor set back?

I need to be careful what a write.  I think Sally has a voodoo doll hidden away somewhere.  Right after I posted my creation, I pulled a muscle in my back. Next, my brand new snow blower didn't running right.  And as soon as my back started to feel better, I started to experience pain under my rib cage.  Needless to say, I wasn't very productive. Sally ended up shoveling the drive way and washing the dishes.  She did save the mountain of clothes for me to fold when I felt better.  Saturday night, I realized my pain patches were past due to be changed and that was why I had the stomach pains.  Once, the patches kicked in I felt better.

Sometimes, I feel like Charlie Brown.  It seems no matter what I do, I can't seem to get a break.  I spent the last week and a half on the phone.  After collecting short term disability for 3 months, I am now having problems.  Last week the payment was late by almost a week.  The incorrect amount is being taken out for the last two weeks. Normally, $50 isn't such a big deal but when I am receiving very little, it's a lot to be missing. They  left me a message today,saying  it has been looked into and they resolved the problem.  Not sure what that means, but I will call tomorrow to find out since I was not home today. 
 

This morning I had an appointment with the oncologist followed by an infusion.  Sally did not get the chance to talk to him while I was in the hospital.  Today, she drilled him  with questions.  I am the one who is optimistic.  My wife is pessimist and always look for the bad.  She will say I walk around wearing blinders and she is being realistic.  I like my approach my better. At least I am happier not knowing the bad.  Because of Sally's pessimism, we found out the cancer is growing.  There are more lesions in the liver.  Even though I am not responding to the chemo as well as I should be, it's slowing down the growth of the cancer.  Right now that is the only option we have.  We are still hopeful the chemotherapy drug, regorafenib, will be on the market soon and I will respond well to it.  The latest information is certainty a bummer (thanks Sally) but I am still determine to not give up and fight.  Praying for a cure for cancer or at least new chemo drugs to go on the market sooner then every 5 years.  Well that is what is going on now. well tell more as if happens but, for now you  half to read the boring family stuff.


Have a good night.  Gods Blessings to you.  Bill 

Here I Go Again (not the song)

It happened again.  Just like last Thursday. I took Zachary to his appointments. Waited in the waiting rooms for a total of 3 hours.  I was freezing, tired, and hungry, and couldn't wait to get home.  I thought since I mentioned Sally's misbehavior last week, she would be better.  Well....

I came home and Kaity looked liked this:

Sally tied rags all over Kaity's hair.  I took a closer look it was one of my T-shirts that was used.  

Then Kaity announced she made a chocolate pie.

I was happy to hear they were waiting on me to eat pie.  

Sally served me a big piece of pie with whipped cream and a cherry on top.  Then she sat next to me as I took a big bite.  Then she grinned and said she used the same recipe that was used in  the movie "The Help".  I suddenly didn't want any more and she laughed.  It took another five minutes of her and Kaity trying to convince me they didn't.  I finally believed her, when she showed me a picture of Kaity cleaning out the dish.

 Just like last week, there was a sink of dishes waiting for me.  Plus, a couch full of clothes that needed folding.  This guy can't catch a break. 

 So this is what she does to me, while I am out doing my family duties. I give her a break from one of the kids and this is what I get. Out freezing my tootsies off as well as driving in this dangerously hostile  weather with no mercy shown to this most humble, loving, faithful, compassionate, and fearless father. I don't want to sound cocky , so I will stop here. I will say though and ect. All I really wanted to do was  drive home as safely as I can while  going in between all the pot holes and ice spots so I can spend quality time with my family that was waiting at home to show there appreciation for a Dad that did well. But noooooooo, this is the thanks that I get.. The dishes and clothes I am use to, but poop in my food product no way.
Thanks for visiting and god bless you all. Thanks for the prayers.

Black Out

I normally do not post politics on my blog.  However, today I feel the need for it.  Today, the Internet goes on strike for 12 hours to take a stand against Internet censorship.  At first, I wasn't concerned until I learned how much it will effect me if the bills are passed.  Some of my favorite sites such as Face Book and YouTube will be forced to shut down. I will most likely close my blog as well, in fear of being sued and/or serving jail time.  If the bills are passed, Internet as we now know it, will no longer be. Please take a minute of your day to sign the petition. Thank you  Bill.  
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How Am I Doing?

How am I doing? I am doing better then I have in a while and I am thankful for that. I have had two chemo treatments since I have been out of the hospital. I have started to monitor my sugar levels and realized when I feel nauseated it's because my blood sugar is low. I have been trying to eat at regular times (even when I am not hungry) and I have been  able to eat more as well. I haven't gained any weight but I haven't lost any more either.  I am OK with not gaining, I just don't want to loose anymore because of  not feeling well.  

As for the pain, it is tolerable.  I can't go without my pain medication, but the pain is now manageable with it. Sometimes, in the evening the pain is worse but it's usually better by morning. I am glad to be functionable again.

I miss not working. I miss not socializing.I miss not working out. I miss not having a need to get up every day and a purpose for my day.  I have started attending mass daily.I really enjoy doing this  I usually go in the morning and that seems to help.  I try to keep myself busy by doing laundry, washing dishes, and house work.  Sally said she knows I need to keep busy so she is being kind when she watches soaps and eats bon-bons while I "keep busy".  I also have been taking Zach to his basket ball practices.  When the weather was nice, I took him to the park to practice.  I have been spending a lot of time playing with the kids. I am really enjoying this part of being home.  I do get tired easily and often have to lay down in the afternoon for a bit but other then that I am doing good as good as I can be.

That is how I have been doing the last few weeks. I can live with this and be happy. I hope all of you can live happy as well. Thanks for visiting and God Bless.

Pertured and Not Amused

I am almost lost for words. I tried to do the right thing, I tried to be a good dad, a good husband, and now I am not sure why I even bother.  Zach had 2 appointments today after school.  I volunteered to take him.  One reason, I wanted to spend time with my little boy.  The second, it's snowing and I didn't want my dear wife to have to drive in it.

While I was gone the mice played.  More like rats played.


While I was out Sally turned our little pumpkin to a rock star making her look 15 year older then she should. Giving me a horrifying glimpse what the future may be like.

Then I found out Kaity with the help of her mother, made a batch of cheese biscuits. Leaving me none.  Of course Sally blamed Kaity for eating them all and Kaity blamed her mom.  I love cheese biscuits.They know I do. Yet, they could not manage to save me one.
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Then, I found out they had hot chocolate.  Of course, they didn't save any of that for me either.  I love hot chocolate.  I am the one that hooked them on to hot chocolate. Actually, I hooked Kaity.  Sally doesn't even really care for hot chocolate but today she decided she likes it.

But what really did it.  Wasn't the make over of Kaity, or the empty pan of cheese biscuits, or the no mug of hot chocolate waiting for me.  It was the........

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 Yep, that's my shoveled drive way. I waited and waited for the snow. I couldn't wait to try out my snow blower.  Everyone knew I wanted to try my bad boy out.  The first snow of the season and Sally couldn't wait for me to come home. She just had to beat me.

She did manage to save something for me.  Bless her heart (cough cough).

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A sink full of dirty dishes waiting for me to wash.